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What does it mean when somebody says you are fake? My definition of fake is smiling in somebodies face and putting on an act when you know you don't like them or talking bad about somebody and telling everybody else about it when you go home and do the same thing. There are a lot of fake people at my school. I feel like I am starting to be seen as one when I really am not. I am just the type of person to start off liking everybody. Then I will start to notice what they do and how it affects me or our friendship. I start to notice how they treat their friends and how two sided they can be. So the next day I will end that friendship with that person..so I guess it could be considered as fake if the person is unaware that I no longer like them... but hey people shouldn't care that much if they are not good people anyways.
I unlike others do believe in second chances, but if things continue to be one way then I would have to end it. I have lost a total of 5 friends since my four years at Drake. One being an old roommate, a guy, two chicks older then me one who did not go to Drake, and a younger chick from my dance team. I can't stand lies, I can't stand people that treat others wrong or use others, I can't stand hoes, I can't stand a chick that doesn't know her boundries, I can't respect a man that does not respect women, I can't respect chicks that run their mouths about things that are not true. So to these people I would like to say sorry for wasting your time. I hope one day you all will develope respect for yourselves and others. Thanks for the learnign experiences. May your lives be happy, wealthy, and filled with good luck.

She wakes up happy and full of joy every morning
Thankful for her life that day she prepares for the day
She attends her classes
she Works her jobs..
She returns home at the end of a busy day
sits on the couch
turns on the tv
gets bored
looks to the internet for entertainment
The same routine each day...
The feeling of wanting somebody else to share the day with grows and grows stronger
Wanting somebody to come home to
wanting somebody to sneak text too
She looks around at her friends..
All have men of their own/or women in some cases
All are happy
All can have that one person to share their private parts with..
What is she doing wrong?
What has she done to deserve these years of worthless relationships
What did she do to not be able to be blessed to have a certain guy give her some attention she would rather not give herself..
One day it will happen... One day her luck will change...

Ok So here is the fucking deal... you did not tell us what happend so all we had was a one sided view. What I can't stand is the stupidity of some people on this campus everybody wants to keep shit a secret and think that they are holy then others. Wells lets face it you are not shit. you treat females like shit... and you know you do because you say they let themselves be treated like shit. I am in great discuss with you because you were my friend untill you fucked over my friends.. I can't handle being cool with people that are so rude. Then you have the nerve to write on here as if you know the answer to life like we are suppose to be simpathetic to your life? First of all treat people like they are human beings and then maybe you will not have to ponder so much on why people act how they do. Why am I mad at you? because I tried to understand you, but you have been doing the same shit since that caused me not to like you in the first place.. as if you did not give a fuck about how people feel about you.. I still feel as if I needed to write on this damn site because obviously you seem to put your emotions on here and it seems as if you take this pretty personally. I will be glad to hear when your ass is gone because if I hear a freshmen next year speak of your name I will be sick.

Damn You, just when I was starting to feel you/
You declared your were threw(sp?)/
You gave me four days to be with you/
Three nights to sleep with you (no sex)/
Twice did I kick it with your family/
And I cashed a check the day your parents were about to leave/
For the bit we did speak/
I felt that you were just like me/
We both come from big families/
We both want the same things/
Both got big dreams/
And I am not talking about a lot of bling bling/
Career moves, family similarities, I am saying/
we both got a ton of love to give dieing to spill out of our veins/
A friend is cool I guess if thats what you want to be/
I learned a lot about you /
But you don't know much about me/
It's not fair to say your done/
When I have not shown you me, thats kinda dumb/
Words can be mistaken for a lot of things/
But if anything/
I said messed up my chances to be a possibility in an unforcasted future/
Then I swear by this computer/
I am sorry and dont take what I said for what it means/
I was mad and angry/
And when I am like that I say stupid things/
I am pretty independent when it comes to things/
but hugs and affection always relieves the pain/
Of love once felt but will never happen again/
I mean you got me open like a wound/
Are you going to patch me up and continue your surgery/ or are you going to leave me to bleed/
This is my last plea/
If you were feeling me like you said you were then things should start over again start off new/
Because I am digging you/
But if you are staying true to the no happy conclusion/
Then let this be a document you don't ever have to open/
Go ahead and throw it away/
Because there is no use for it after today.....

Damn you Mr. Fine thing
Mr. Wine and Dine man what you doing looking all cute for
I am checking you out from across the dance floor
The vibe you giving me is making me think
Scared to blink
If I lose site of you then I will be ashamed
The thoughts of you holding me is making me want to reach the stars
I am in Aw....
Then I feel it real deep
When you look at me...and my heart ... It begins to skip a beat...



Pulling you closer while we are tangled in love, sweat, and lust...
I am starving for more because what you feeding me keeping my stomach in motion
Creating violent eruptions
Our tongues touch our thighs unit
You fucking me all night
My mind pondering
Got me wondering
What if I never answered that message would I be in this wonderland?
My body jerkin you smiling you know what you are doing
My body releasing a lot of body fluids
My eyes roll back and I feel it deep
My heart begins to skip a beat



My dad walking arm in arm with me
My vision is blurry
Through this ivory
I hear the ringing of bells
My Grandma begins to sing
My mom and yours weeping in their seats
I see you smiling at me... your dimples are so deep
Water rushes to my lids I hold them back
I love you baby you mouth to me
I feel your heart through your palm as you grab my hand to help me up
I am on the stage we are about to conceal our love
I feel it deep my heart begins to skip a beat....